Xander Dixon was my best friend.
Loyal and dependable.
A brave warrior.
A permanent presence in my life until that fateful day he boarded a plane headed overseas.
Xander’s unwelcome silence haunted me for three years…
Until he suddenly resurfaces.
Blinded by misplaced fury.
Trapped in a pool of darkness.
Unable to escape the perpetual pain.
Though it would be easy to walk away, I refuse to give up on him.
I want to know his misery and torment, so I can rescue him.
Then Xander will finally be mine.
Seeing Willow again is like taking a direct hit to my chest. I loved that girl with all I had to give but never did a damn thing about it. She was always so pure and bright. What could she ever see in a loser like me? I wanted to make something of myself so I had more to offer her. I wanted to be a man she would be proud to claim.
The fantasy of us getting hitched and having a fleet of children when I was done with my tour had kept me company. I often dreamed of it on those long, lonely nights. Too bad I was always too chicken shit to tell her my feelings and now she will never know. Fuck, I missed her something fierce but I couldn’t even talk to her when she showed up at the door. I just pushed her away and hid behind my bullshit armor.
My head falls into my hands and then I yank on my hair. What the fuck have I done? The one chance I get to speak to Willow and I act like a demented moron. She sure as hell won’t be coming back. I made sure of that, just like with my mother. No point dwelling on it. Not like she would want anything to do with me once she realized what I’ve become. I’m sure she kicked up rocks with how fast she tore out of here.
I slowly stand and stretch before securing all the locks. When I glance out the window, I’m shocked to see a car in my driveway. Why is Willow still here? With a closer look, it seems her tires are spinning in the thick snow that now covers the ground. She keeps trying to move forward, which is only making the ruts she’s stuck in worse. Willow is not going anywhere anytime soon if she keeps that up.
Whether I like it or not, I’m going to have to go out there to help her. How can I do that without speaking to her?
My thoughts on the author:
Where should I start? How about where I am recovering from my heart being shattered all over the place. Redefining Us is Harloe Rae’s debut book! Her words swallowed me up and had me fall in love with the book and characters. She is the real deal people! You can feel her story coming from her heart and most importantly her soul. It bleeds out onto the pages. I have never read a book where the words itself, from page to page, really have a hold on me. I read the blurb, and YES! It was down the alley of what I love to read. You already feel the darkness and emptiness. You feel the love and pain. So I knew without a doubt I needed this book in my life! Redefining Us will be here soon and I can not wait to one-click to have a copy of my own. Thank you Harloe for bringing us a heartbreaking beautiful story about a broken man and strong willed woman. I FLOVE this book!
My thoughts about the book:
Willow wears her heart on her sleeve. She is beautiful inside and out. She loved a man with her whole heart. Her best friend. But for three years he has disappeared out of her life. Like everything they had been through meant nothing. Willow has one regret, a secret that she never told anyone and wished she had. Is it too late now? Can she finally set herself free? Willow looks beyond her feelings and helps the ones that need it the most. Willow shows us she is strong where others are weak, but can also be weak where others are strong. So who can balance her out? I loved Willow and wanted to be her strength when she needed it. But as I got more into the book, I knew she would be alright.
“ I can’t stand to be touched. It feels like acid is burning my flesh then slowly ripping away from the bone.” ~ Xander
Xander of course does not start off broken. Life has made him that way. He lives with the darkness, hate, sorrow, guilt, and a huge gaping hole in his heart. He has shut down and is only a shell of himself. So before I knew where his mindset was, I thought Xander was a world class douche when he shut out his mom, then tried again with Willow. Instincts kicked in and Willow stayed. Xander was going through a spiral fall, learning to live in the darkness, and has lost all hope. Willow has never met this man, but is determined to help. Whether they stay only as a friends or more, she is there until the end. Xander finally realizes Willow is his calm, his light, she quiets the voices and nightmares that live in his head. When Xander finally releases his despair, Willow was there. That scene killed me! I cried with them. Finally it is time to let is go…
“I feel like Xander is reciting a poem to my soul with every drive into my core. What is happening feels meant to be on an instinctual level.” ~ Willow
Redefining Us is dark, sexy, and so emotional. All the feels you have with this book stays deep within you. Xander’s and Willow’s love is on a whole different level. The sexy hot scenes were scorching! It was raw and real as they let their instincts take over. Powerful..that is the best word to describe this book. My heart goes out to those who suffer and battle demons everyday. Redefining Us is my top favorite this year and is a definite must read, cheese and rice ❤
“I love you so fucking much Wills. I’ll spend the rest of my years proving that to you. Life has been so fucking dark, but since you’ve been around, there is a blinding light reflecting everywhere.” ~ Xander
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